I keep thinking suicide is the greatest option to choose...?

the suicide hotline will not call the police,, please calm down. if i were in your position I would call them to talk things out,, slowly,, taking time with it. do you have any friends or anyone you can talk to? if not, confide in someone you can truly trust. if i were you i would focus on loving myself, looking at all the good things about me (not listing all the bad like you do), ignore the other people and think about how messed up they are. think about how useful you can be when no one else can stop you. of you don't feel "big" enough to stand up to these people, just ignore them. and who cares of you are weird? i am totally weird and i know people think it, but then i have friends who are like me . . so find some willing people like that. suicide is for no one, everyone has the strength and knowledge to actually understand the meaning of their life. just don't give up. life is a huge challenge. focus on your school work, make a plan for what you want to do in your future. and don't just stay in on weekends, etc. go out, observe other people, and think, "it seems to easy to be so carefree and happy, but why can't I be like that too?" consider moving to a new school if you cannot concentrate on your life, start fresh and new. ending your life should never be an option. let out your feelings, explaining them all, think about it. write them down, mail them to yourself. then when you get them, go over them and see what you still agree with, or what has changed. i believe you are strong enough to forget the "option" of death. every life is equally valuable, and we all deserve to achieve what ever we want, with out anyone standing in our way. so please, do not end your life,, please. i will pray for you.. .& good luck sorting things out. <3