How do I get over this pain and confusion and embarrassment?

time heals everything but first , why did you give hime all of your love like this for free, why do you love hime or why are you attracted to him, is it is experience in the wisdom of getting drunk, get over him, tim will do you , but please watch out and becareful the next time you meet someone dont give him your all, dont use you full emotional potentail with him, he is not your honest husband nor the father of your kids...what is he, he is an illusion in your head, first try sports to distract your self and to uplift your depression then comes the turn of work and education